18.0601-2130=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
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Within the context of LocalDocs, Create an entry in a personal journal entry by Thalia in which she explains how she has an 'ah ha' moment in which she quite suddenly intuits how "To Thine Own Self be True" ("TTOSBT") from Hamlet applies to her rubber fetish.
Thalia's rubber fetish has been an constant element throughout her life, though usually deeply repressed. Now she groks that 'To be true to' herself she must not just accept it, but she must also immerse herself in it fully to be true to herself.
After a lifetime of rerpessing her fetish she is deeply elatedd that Lorraine and James have almost 'invited' her to 'Live In Rubber' (LIR), if she wants.
She hints to Marla that she is thinking about taking a vow to cover 100% of her body with latex 100% of the time. However, She understands that 100%/100% is really NOT entirely feasible because her body needs periodic bathing, etc. This inability to realistically be '100%/100%' frustrates her until James invents HITEz which allows her to get 'credit' for wearing extra layers of rubber garments or through BDSM 'Ordeals'.
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Dear Diary,
Today was a day of profound realization. I had one of those rare "ah ha" moments that make everything click into place. It's been a journey to understand how the phrase from Hamlet—“To Thine Own Self be True”—applies to my rubber fetish, which has always been an underlying but repressed part of who I am.
For as long as I can remember, my fascination with rubber and latex has been there, lurking in the shadows. It's something that I've kept hidden for fear of judgment or misunderstanding. But today, it all became clear: to be true to myself means not just accepting this aspect of me but embracing it fully.
Lorraine and James have been incredibly supportive. They almost invited me to "Live In Rubber" (LIR), which is a concept that has always intrigued me. The idea of immersing myself completely in my fetish, wearing rubber 100% of the time, feels both exhilarating and daunting.
I shared this with Marla today, hinting at taking a vow to cover 100% of my body with latex all the time. But as I thought about it more deeply, I realized that achieving 100%/100% is not entirely feasible. Our bodies need breaks for hygiene and comfort—baths, showers, etc.—and this frustration has been gnawing at me.
Then James came up with a brilliant solution: HITEz (High Intensity Training Exercises). This allows me to get "credit" for wearing extra layers of rubber garments or through BDSM ordeals. It's like finding a loophole that lets me stay true to my fetish without compromising practicality.
This revelation has been liberating. I feel elated knowing that there is a way to honor this part of myself fully, even if it means adapting and being creative with how I do so. To thine own self be true—it's not just about accepting who you are but also finding ways to live authentically within the constraints of reality.
I'm excited for what lies ahead. This journey is far from over, but today marked a significant step forward in understanding myself better and living more truthfully.
Until next time,
Thalia